Thursday, February 16, 2012

for real now.. FOR REAL.. getting paid to go to high school??

Ok so yesterday I heard the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard!! A school in Cincinnati, Ohio is so desperate to boost attendance and graduation records that they're paying students to go to school. Yes, I said that.. PAYING students. Get this, seniors get $25 gift cards and underclassment $10, and money is continously added. This program is estimated to cost $40,000 and the money is raised by fundraising and charities (Don't really get me started on where that money can go. How about to Haiti or the people still struggling over Hurricane Katrina).

This is the kind of thing that makes me sad about society today. This is how surreal our reality is. Why is it that parents let their kids TELL THEM that they're not going to school anymore? I would never have even fathomed of doing that!! It's sad to me that kids are unmotivated. We're living in a time where the US Education system is losing its value, it's no longer leading the pack in areas such as math and science. Students feel entitled and do not work hard.

My friends and family laugh at me when I say I could not have children but honestly this is a major concern of mine. I just don't understand how society is so wrapped up in having the greatest and latest new fad but are failing to promote the value of a good education. Kids are playing video games where they're blowing apart cars or people but can't see the value of a book. They're consumed by the here and now and forget about their futures, FACEBOOK is their reality.

I just don't agree with the message paying a student sends? It lets them know that the most valuable thing in life is financial means. The bottom line is that you can have all the money in the world and be miserable. If you know how to foster a creative mind, you're constantly growing!!!

Let's take a poll, how many students have you met that do not have a high school diploma? Maybe their successful now, I'm not trying to say street smarts does not exist, but I bet you 9 times out of 10, that success came with A LOT of unnecessary struggle..

I sometimes wish that we still lived in a time where the fear of the parent forced people to act responsibily and not act a fool. Dropping out, smh.. Really paying students??? SMDH!!!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Tara Simo 101

The fun part of working in a college is that they are always striving to be innovative. They do workshops, skills assessments, group simulations, training. All in an effort to be more cohesive, unified and stronger. When I worked at Rio we did a campus wide initiative to assess our strengths. This program called "StrengthQuest" was a personal assessment that involved answering a bunch of questions. The goal was to determine what top five strengths each person possesses (out of a full listing of 34). The idea was that having this knowledge would help others highlight the strengths of their colleagues and work more efficiently together as a unit. I first took this assessment in October of 2009. I thought I'd share and give you a snapshot of who I am. Here are some short descriptions of my results in order of highest strength:


RELATOR
People who are especially talented in the Relator theme enjoy close relationships with others. They find deep satisfaction in working hard with friends to achieve a goal.

MAXIMIZER
People who are especially talented in the Maximizer theme focus on strengths as a way to stimulate personal and group excellence. They seek to transform something strong into something superb.

EMPATHY
People who are especially talented in the Empathy theme can sense the feelings of other people by imagining themselves in others’ lives or others’ situations.

INPUT
People who are especially talented in the Input theme have a craving to know more. Often they like to collect and archive all kinds of information.

RESPONSIBILITY
People who are especially talented in the Responsibility theme take psychological ownership of what they say they will do. They are committed to stable values such as honesty and loyalty.

In a matter of 7 months I had moved on to another college and ironically enough was asked to fill out the same assessment. The following became my strengths in order:


RESPONSIBILITY

RELATOR

ADAPTABILITY
People who are especially talented in adaptability theme prefer to "go with the flow." They tend to be "now" people who take things as they come and discover the future one day at a time.

DEVELOPER
People who are especially talented in the Developer theme recognize and cultivate the potential in others. They spot the signs of each small improvement and derive satisfaction from these improvements.

INPUT


So from the two assessments 3 strengths remained the same, 2 had dropped off and 2 more were added. The order of the original 3 had shifted.

It was puzzling to me that new strengths came forth and then I realized that as a person is placed in different situations, the environment causes an adaptation of strengths (I think of the above as my top 7 strengths). Everyone has a bit of all 34 strengths but there are some that are more potent than others and some that are "flexed" more often.

I stumbled upon the last assessment earlier this week when I was reading through some emails I had sent a friend. I couldn't quite understand my feelings and how I was handling a difficult situation and reading this list helped comfort me. It was enlightening to understand why so many of my blogs are about values such as honesty, integrity, trust, and communication. As my responsibility strength shows this is immensely important to me.

It also helped me to realize "wow.. I really am an empathetic person" (although my relator strength would argue that I am selectively empathetic to those I have deep personal relationships with). I want to understand a person and really not judge. I want them to develop. To see and become the potential that I see: they're ability to be great, happy and successful in work and life!

My responses to things at times seem unorthodox even to me but I realize these strengths all combine to make me who I am. Someone I will always respect, admire, and be proud of. I wouldn't want to be anyone else...

Thursday, January 12, 2012

honesty or the show...

I've been thinking about people and the interactions we make daily with others. I don't know if its my interactions of late or the world in general, however it seems like nowadays honesty and the acknowledgement of a person's integrity is something that's been losing its strength. When I say that I mean to elude that people seem to want to be shown what they want and not simple truth. They want the illusion of perfection and do not require the merit to back it up. They are unwilling to take your character as evidence of that truth, instead they hold their truth to be of bigger importance..

Let me get more specific. I have a great friend who is a very outspoken and straight forward person. If you present a situation to him he will give you examples of how that situation may plays out. This friend's nature is to help you see the big picture so that you can be prepared for both a best or worst case scenario. We've had discussions on this before and I think my friend knows me well. I have a tendency to give the situation or person the benefit of the doubt, to believe it will work itself out, to have trust in human nature or timing. I do not examine the worst case scenario but with him he zeros in on it. We discussed how he's often perceived as being pessimistic and he informed me that most people don't think about the worst, their minds are not systematic in thinking...

This is really interesting to me. I often find myself discussing problems with friends and in my experience friends always want to tell you the hard truth. THEIR TRUTH, through their eyes and their experiences. Truths that to them are absolute.
"He must be lying to you because I went through the EXACT same thing and that's what I found out". "Girl those actions are just proof that (blah, blah, and blah.. fill in the blank) is going on". Maybe there is some truth to all their experiences, maybe not. Part of life is weeding out your experiences to learn what you find to be true for you.

I'm given a hard time for being open-minded to certain people and situations. Is it being naive? Maybe in some situations but maybe on the other hand it's allowing someone to be truly honest with me, to trust their character and integrity. If they're in my life at this stage in the game its because they've already showed me something substantial that allows me to trust them. I have no problem weeding out the bad seeds.

It drives me nuts when I tell someone that I don't lie and they don't believe me. Why is it hard to believe that I believe in being honest with myself and the people that matter most. Maybe its easier to express to people that I believe in integrity. It's important to me that I stand by my beliefs and that I am a person who is respected for her actions and character. I'm human, sure I make mistakes but I believe being honest about them makes me a better person...

Today I had an interview and in it I struggled with some things. I was asked to build a model of a top notch service center. How do you create programs, activities, events that will take us the next level? Show us how you'd do this or that? My mind just kept thinking about all the day to day demands of the position. That in itself was an ENORMOUS challenge. The underlying question becomes how do I keep up with that while at the same time wowing the administration with cutting edge ideas and programs. I began to see why the last person in the position was not able to succeed. He was overwhelmed with building the image that was desired and lost track of the details that create a reputation of success. You don't create a position to coordinate and assume the rest will work itself out. You work together with that person, collaborate together fully and make it a campus-wide effort. But how do you break the news to administration. A. You don't want to be perceived as lazy B. You don't want to be perceived as not being up to the challenge but C. you want to be honest and have integrity in providing the best and worst case scenario. Are they ready for that truth or are they looking for that show?

In a nutshell my question is this: Are we as a society cognizant of what honesty truly represents? Of the effort it takes to be honest? Of the costs involved to live by and truly express integrity? Or are we just looking forward to the show? Do we just wait for someone to SHOW us something that aligns with our truth:

Yes it is doable to work at two separate campuses, create events and presentations at each. Service 400 students, be available 24/7 to answer questions. Take classes to become an expert in post traumatic stress disorder, advise students, counsel and tutor them, etc, etc, etc. And did I mention I will be doing this all alone just because you made me a manager. I'm superhuman and I don't need any support.

Yes he bought you flowers, but no it can't be because he just WANTS to, because he wants to see you smile. It means that he's slept around on you, he's covering for some mistake, he's about to dump you and wants to let you down easy, etc, etc, etc.

So yes.. I value my friends opinion when he tells me I need to look big picture. Don't be naive, don't overlook the worst case BUT on the other hand I want to believed when I show you who I am, I don't want to be thought of as someone playing a game, someone who is just putting their best foot forward.. I want to be able to be honest and have you give me some credit in return...

Sunday, January 1, 2012

one day..




Ok so I just watched a love story entitled one day. I don't know what it was about it but from the beginning it had me in its clutches. I think it was the perfect movie for me to see today on the first day of the year. The day of new beginnings, the day where the old washes away and the new springs forth. There's something refreshing about the seasons, something refreshing about friendships. Seasons of change and growth and becoming what we're meant to be.

All that I'll say about this movie is that it made me think of people who've come and gone. I've never believed it's a bad thing to let go of friendships. Sometimes I think that when two people don't see eye to eye, its ok. You've had good times, supported each other and the season has come and gone. Growth sometimes requires separation. Then there's people in your life you know with all your being were meant to be around a lifetime. Their roles change, become more distant or more potent, but their very presence fills your lungs with air. I'm so very very blessed to never have felt like I am short of breath! Thank you all for that gift.

I will never regret life because I know life has made me who I am. Someone I'm proud to be and someone who values the people in her life. The ones that see me, value me, and help make me. Happy New Years to all. I love you all!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Love Languages...

When I was in high school my youth pastor did this sermon on love languages and it just stuck... Anyone who knows me knows communication fascinates me. When I think of two people I think wow.. two whole different lives, two whole different definitions, it’s so miraculous and encouraging when they can see eye to eye. I think that’s why love languages have followed me around for the last fifteen years. Every relationship I have I break down the language…

Do they feel love when I buy them gifts? How about when I do an act of service, like cleaning the dishes or cooking dinner? What about when I’m whispering sweet nothings, affirming them? Maybe it’s when I ideally stroke their arm or face? Maybe it’s in all the undivided attention I give them?

I know I’ve been in relationships where I wonder, how can this man not know that I’m so in love with him. Look at all the ways I show him. Then I think "DAMN this is unrequited love"… It’s like I’m standing alone in the rain and they’re not showing me anything..

I think the refreshing thing about love languages is that everyone has a way they receive love and 8 times out of 10 that’s the way they show love. It’s comforting to know that one person may express his or her emotions in a completely different ways than another. It’s nice to know that you don’t have to date man after man to know all the signals because signals are subjective and individual… Friends, children, co-workers, significant others. They all have a way in which they feel special, appreciated, and loved.

Recently I asked a friend what his language was. I was sure I knew because I’ve always considered myself the guru on communication. I watch and observe and pay attention to the details. When I was told his I was floored!!! How could I have missed that? I had bought gifts, said all the right things, spent every available moment I could but I had never done something special to help him out. Then I brought him soup while he was sick.... My oh my did the light bulb click on. The man kept thanking me so much I had to tell him to stop… And honestly it just made me feel like I was finally been seen in a room full of beautiful things. There's nothing better than making someone else feel loved and treasured!!

They say that everyone loves in each of these five ways: gifts, acts of service, quality time, words of affirmation or physical touch. They also say that one is dominant and most important. If you never receive that, you will always feel half empty….. It’s an interesting thought.

What is your love language? Take the test today!!
http://www.5lovelanguages.com/assessments/love/

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Took a break...love had me at a standstill

Ok so I realized today that it's been awhile since I've blogged. Actually if I'm honest with myself I've been aware of that fact for quite some time now. The problem is I was paralyzed by love. I've been up and down in my relationship for quite some time now. Don't get me wrong it was a great relationship, the best I've had. Sometimes it's hard being up and down because you don't want the down to be negatively reflective of a guy who is beautiful inside and out, someone who is just dealing with a multitude of life's demands. So instead of discussing and getting the empathetic ear that's sometimes crucial in straightening out your emotions, you retreat. You retreat because you don't want to talk about it and you know eventually everyone will ask. It's not a bad thing, I personally find it essential and self-regulating, but it sometimes can be impersonal and lonely. That being said, it's definitely hard to create a balance. Balance that for a Libra is imperative. So in my effort to deal and to sort, I've retreated. Retreated from everything and anything so that I could figure out what was in my heart and mind, not what everyone else felt should be there.

Today I read a friend's blog and she was talking about being ready for that next stage of life. You know the 2.5 kids, white picket fence, happily ever after life. I guess in the storytails it's always like a model home: perfect. Never do the kids from the ex come into view, there's no baby momma drama, no bankrupcies, loss of employment, etc. There's get that great job, pay off all the bills, be in a great place, meet that great guy and one, two, two.five kids later you've reached that pinnacle of happiness. What I've come to realize and what most should know by now (those not living under a rock anyways) is that life isn't an order. It's a mess and it's unpredictable.

Thinking about my ex has made this topic or situation come to light for me. It's been highlighted quite a bit. I just don't understand why people want to live in a world with things that are temporary instead of actually living. They want that fat crib, that hummer, or they want to be perceived as being able to have that and being that person that can and will support the masses. The truth is life happens. You either choose to be present in life or you choose to exclude yourself in an effort to prioritize something that in the long run doesn't matter. Tell me this, what happens when you decide to put off love in an effort to pay off bills? Then you get to the point where the bills are paid and your one true love has moved on to another. All the riches in the world can't make you happy. I just find this sad, pathetic and lonely. Things will never be Walt Disney. And unfortunately people assume that if it isn't, the happiness won't be as concrete or complete. Truth is happiness is what you make it. It doesn't just come one day and slap you in the face to say "I'm here, wake up". If you want a family and want to travel too, make sure you plan a way to do both. Just be active in your future instead of thinking one means the other is gone forever.

So instead of choosing to live your life alone, choose to live it with someone, letting someone support your struggles, being a shoulder to your sorrows, and a champion of your successes. Is life really worth living if you are alone and miserable?

I know I've been M.I.A. but hopefully you all know you're loved. Its funny that this happened to be the topic of my return but when I look at all my loved ones, my lost love included, I see this as being the struggle of most. The thought that life isn't what it should be. So what happens, we become depressed so much we can't move to a place we CAN be happy. You are the agent of change and happiness is what you make it.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

part-time vegetarian

Everyone knows my motto in life (and if you don't you're obviously a newbie to my blog so welcome!!).. "make decisions you can be proud of". My goal in life is to not live in ignorance but live with a purpose, however minor. My favorite example of this is going into the grocery store. Why do people buy what they buy? I personally would go into the grocery store and buy products that my mother had bought for years, no real discernment as to why.. What I've learned is that purchasing trends have POWER! It becomes a game to me.. How can I make better choices...

a. Choose Target over Wal-mart (don't get me started.. All I can say is Wal-mart has many many issues. Watch the documentary. I know time has passed and Wal-mart has had opportunity to make positive changes but when you have as many issues as Wal-mart has, it'll take decades. Morally I feel good with Target. A company who donates 5% of income to charity can't be bad. And they're full of green products..Plus news is that they're beating Wal-mart in the prices of products consumers buy most)

b. Buy compact fluorescant light bulb versus the regular brands.

c. Choose environmental friendly cleaning products.

d. Buy organic when I can.

Unfortunately the thing I've learned is that to be smart is also to be broke at times. Our economy is so screwed up and backwards that to make better choices for our health and environment usually causes us financial pain.

A few months ago my friend Raven and I were going on and on about Temple Grandin. How inspiring is her desire to be humane to animals. Ray says to me "we should become vegetarians". My response "I don't eat a lot of meat, chicken and fish mostly but my problem is I'm so lazy".. Break to a few weeks later when I check the mail and find an article discussing all the benefits of being a part-time Vegetarian. Got to love my SELF magazine.

Some highlights:

1. Lose weight!! Those who eat the most processed and red meat gained the most weight.

2. Helping the planet!! Having a plant based diet one day a week cuts more greenhouse gas emissions than buying all locally grown food.

3. Fend of cancer!! According to a Harvard study women who consumed animal fat in form of read meat and high-fat dairy had 24 percent higher risck of developing breast cancer.

4. To protect your heart!! Especially for women age 30 to 55 (according to a 26 year long study). Protect your heart by eating beans and nuts!

5. Save $$$$$ !!! Plant proteins are cheap!! Plus meat consumption costs the U.S. more than $190billion in health-related expenses (i.e. cancer and diabetes).

So now that I got the knowledge, gonna do my best to kick my lazy butt in gear. Mission: Meatless Mondays!!, who's in??