-noun
Endorphins… lol.. got to love the endorphins. Maybe it’s something about the word that thrills me. Maybe it’s the sensual, ris-kay thoughts that it arouses. There’s just something hypnotizing to me about living your life in pursuit of pleasure. Enjoying the highs, feeling as if the blood is running through your veins! Being bold enough to risk possible vulnerability, standing firm in what drives you toward satisfaction.
The dictionary's definition of an endorphin is a group of hormones that are released in the brain. When released, endorphins release a feel-good feeling. A feeling that increase the body's threshold for pain and give a chemical reaction similiar to morphine!
My definition:
1. A soft, savory kiss with my man.
2. Being wrapped up in the troughs of passion, candles lit, shadowy soft lighting
3. Walking around naked. Confident in my skin and celebrating my beauty (extra curves, rolls and all).
4. A nice big chunk of… smooth chocolat!
5. Deep, gut wrenching laughter.
6. Witnessing real love, a man and a woman making a commitment to battle all the ups and downs
7. Hitting the nail on the head when I pen my emotions. Writing is truly healing.
8. A nice intense work-out. Where I’m in the zone, experiencing a “runner’s high”.
9. Becoming a woman of integrity, a person who lives with her convictions, and can continue to learn from life, others, and her mistakes.
10. A hike taken in nature!
I think it's important to find your endorphins! Don't overlook or forget your pleasure, your sensualities, your opportunities for release!!
So tell me, whats your morphine? What are your endorphins??
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
20 things I wish I would've known at 20...
The thing about being a Libra, and a middle child for that matter, is that you are molded to balance. You balance your life with work, you balance your friends with family, in essence your world is a balance and you feel a responsibility to have the right balance. I think God has a sense of humor when he created me. I can’t get through a week without wondering how many times a day or week I’ll be able to take my dog for a walk, or exercise myself, or see the man, or see my folks. My balanced self, made sure that my college life was accomplished in four years with exactly 120 credits, the minimum needed. My balanced self, has to make sure that each and every niece/nephew gets equal time and attention. My balanced self sees the good and bad in all people and situations. My balanced self, got a damn degree in communication for goodness sake! As such I guess it goes without saying that many people are amused by my balanced self and my balanced insights on relationships, in particular mine and my learning experiences.
My best friend Karem keeps telling me I need to blog and share my wisdom with the world (like they care??). Good meaning though she is, I ignored her attempt at flattery and went about my business. Not long afterwards I was browsing the yahoo relationship section and I came across a piece that an amateur writer had penned listing the top 20 things she wished she would’ve known by 20. Of course this list, weak as I believe it was, propelled me to my own list. Over my measly decade of dating, I began to wonder, “What are my biggest lessons? What would I share with a clueless friend, or a dear niece, or a future daughter?”. My balanced self, of course, could not miss the opportunity to highlight what has helped me find love, happiness, and of course “balance”. So without further ado, and in no particular order:
1. Everyone has insecurity. Some people choose to beat themselves to death with them. Fact is both men and women have flaws. You have to learn to accept what you can, fix what you can’t and understand nothing and nobody’s perfect.
2. Nobody starts out their lives thinking,” damn.. I know it all! I’m that smart!” The measure of true success is growing with your relationships. You learn from your mistakes. Take a second, figure out what went wrong, and find a way to move on.
3. Know yourself before you get to the point where you want to commit your life to someone. The fact is that everyone wants love. They want the happily ever after. If you don’t value yourself, and know what it is you are about and what you want, you will mold yourself to your partner. You will do what they do and be what you think they want and there’s no room for you. Find someone who values you and doesn’t mind disagreeing.
4. Listen to his stories. Learn what matters to him. Make sure he listens to yours. If he's not interested in hearing yours, he's not interested in the real you.
5. Don’t feel you have to do everything with him. Time apart is good. You have time to miss someone! Missing your man brings heat to the relationship. You value someone even more.
6. Trust. That one word sums it up but I will add this, relationships are about risk, so risk! That’s the only way you’ll find true love. Don’t regret trusting!
7. Pay attention. You can tell early on if a man is controlling, dangerous, manipulative, or a liar. There are signs people! It’s in their words (stories) but mostly it’s in their actions. How does he treat you from day to day? Does he open the door one minute and 2 hours later, lets it close in your face?? That’s a sign people!! Make sure he does not define you.
8. Define your OWN relationship with your partner. Don’t look at others and envy them. The world has changed since our parents time. Relationships do not start or succeed how they once did. You need to discuss, big and little things! Find out what’s important to each of you. Create a top ten do and a top ten don’t list (you don’t have to put it on the fridge, just take mental notes). This will come in handy.
9. Realize that there is no perfect. You might have someone who may be perfect for you but that does not mean that your relationship will be perfect. Relationships are about two people from completely different histories and world views trying to merge. There’s going to be conflict. Don’t let it get you down. Figure out your way to work through it.
10. When you argue about something, discuss it. Have a session, however long it takes. Then let the subject drop. It is not fair to either of you to hash the same issue over and over again. And it is okay to walk away. You don’t have to solve something right away every time. Sometimes you need to go somewhere alone and reevaluate. Whatever you do, do not name call and do not say something in anger you can’t take back.
11. Do not hold your tongue too long. If you do, it’ll lead you to resentments and that will lead to an explosive argument that may be too far gone and too complicated to tackle.
12. Never start a conversation with “we need to talk”. Bring up tough conversations at comfortable times and in a light manner. Your partner will be more receptive then.
13. Make sure you tell someone how you feel about them. The opportunity might not always be there. They may not know or they may not be around long. Have no regrets!
14. Don’t take it personal. When things don’t work out it can be for a lot of reasons. A, timing. B, maturity. C, work. The list goes on and on. You have to realize what your mistakes are but don’t be so wrapped up in someone you feel like you’ve died. Sometimes things are out of your control. It doesn’t mean you were blinded to his flaws or that he was a bad person. Just means it didn’t work. Remember we’re blending wants, desires, full lives. That’s tough!
15. Don’t get bogged down with the physical. Physical changes. In 20 years they’ll be fatter and grumpier, go with someone who fulfills the most aspects of your life and personality. Itis okay to have a wish list, just be realistic.
16. Let him have his friends and that bonding time. Have your friends and your bonding time. Set up rules about how you feel about opposite sex friends. Realize that some women were in his life before you and they somehow shaped who he is. If you can’t trust him around women, you will be paranoid and not happy.
17. Number one trait he should have is integrity. Everything else will align with that virtue. A man of integrity cares about his name. He will do whatever’s in his power to protect and nurture it. Honesty is of utmost importance.
18. Make sure you laugh together. That’s what will get you through the day and will bring about the most amazing memories!
19. Have fun. Focus on the good. Keep things fresh, keep things new. Don’t forget why you’re together. Be romantic!!
20. If you love someone, there is no perfect timing, you have to make room for that person in your life. Whatever it takes. Life is too bad and too good to be alone. The beauty of relationship is having a witness to all the good and bad.
My best friend Karem keeps telling me I need to blog and share my wisdom with the world (like they care??). Good meaning though she is, I ignored her attempt at flattery and went about my business. Not long afterwards I was browsing the yahoo relationship section and I came across a piece that an amateur writer had penned listing the top 20 things she wished she would’ve known by 20. Of course this list, weak as I believe it was, propelled me to my own list. Over my measly decade of dating, I began to wonder, “What are my biggest lessons? What would I share with a clueless friend, or a dear niece, or a future daughter?”. My balanced self, of course, could not miss the opportunity to highlight what has helped me find love, happiness, and of course “balance”. So without further ado, and in no particular order:
1. Everyone has insecurity. Some people choose to beat themselves to death with them. Fact is both men and women have flaws. You have to learn to accept what you can, fix what you can’t and understand nothing and nobody’s perfect.
2. Nobody starts out their lives thinking,” damn.. I know it all! I’m that smart!” The measure of true success is growing with your relationships. You learn from your mistakes. Take a second, figure out what went wrong, and find a way to move on.
3. Know yourself before you get to the point where you want to commit your life to someone. The fact is that everyone wants love. They want the happily ever after. If you don’t value yourself, and know what it is you are about and what you want, you will mold yourself to your partner. You will do what they do and be what you think they want and there’s no room for you. Find someone who values you and doesn’t mind disagreeing.
4. Listen to his stories. Learn what matters to him. Make sure he listens to yours. If he's not interested in hearing yours, he's not interested in the real you.
5. Don’t feel you have to do everything with him. Time apart is good. You have time to miss someone! Missing your man brings heat to the relationship. You value someone even more.
6. Trust. That one word sums it up but I will add this, relationships are about risk, so risk! That’s the only way you’ll find true love. Don’t regret trusting!
7. Pay attention. You can tell early on if a man is controlling, dangerous, manipulative, or a liar. There are signs people! It’s in their words (stories) but mostly it’s in their actions. How does he treat you from day to day? Does he open the door one minute and 2 hours later, lets it close in your face?? That’s a sign people!! Make sure he does not define you.
8. Define your OWN relationship with your partner. Don’t look at others and envy them. The world has changed since our parents time. Relationships do not start or succeed how they once did. You need to discuss, big and little things! Find out what’s important to each of you. Create a top ten do and a top ten don’t list (you don’t have to put it on the fridge, just take mental notes). This will come in handy.
9. Realize that there is no perfect. You might have someone who may be perfect for you but that does not mean that your relationship will be perfect. Relationships are about two people from completely different histories and world views trying to merge. There’s going to be conflict. Don’t let it get you down. Figure out your way to work through it.
10. When you argue about something, discuss it. Have a session, however long it takes. Then let the subject drop. It is not fair to either of you to hash the same issue over and over again. And it is okay to walk away. You don’t have to solve something right away every time. Sometimes you need to go somewhere alone and reevaluate. Whatever you do, do not name call and do not say something in anger you can’t take back.
11. Do not hold your tongue too long. If you do, it’ll lead you to resentments and that will lead to an explosive argument that may be too far gone and too complicated to tackle.
12. Never start a conversation with “we need to talk”. Bring up tough conversations at comfortable times and in a light manner. Your partner will be more receptive then.
13. Make sure you tell someone how you feel about them. The opportunity might not always be there. They may not know or they may not be around long. Have no regrets!
14. Don’t take it personal. When things don’t work out it can be for a lot of reasons. A, timing. B, maturity. C, work. The list goes on and on. You have to realize what your mistakes are but don’t be so wrapped up in someone you feel like you’ve died. Sometimes things are out of your control. It doesn’t mean you were blinded to his flaws or that he was a bad person. Just means it didn’t work. Remember we’re blending wants, desires, full lives. That’s tough!
15. Don’t get bogged down with the physical. Physical changes. In 20 years they’ll be fatter and grumpier, go with someone who fulfills the most aspects of your life and personality. Itis okay to have a wish list, just be realistic.
16. Let him have his friends and that bonding time. Have your friends and your bonding time. Set up rules about how you feel about opposite sex friends. Realize that some women were in his life before you and they somehow shaped who he is. If you can’t trust him around women, you will be paranoid and not happy.
17. Number one trait he should have is integrity. Everything else will align with that virtue. A man of integrity cares about his name. He will do whatever’s in his power to protect and nurture it. Honesty is of utmost importance.
18. Make sure you laugh together. That’s what will get you through the day and will bring about the most amazing memories!
19. Have fun. Focus on the good. Keep things fresh, keep things new. Don’t forget why you’re together. Be romantic!!
20. If you love someone, there is no perfect timing, you have to make room for that person in your life. Whatever it takes. Life is too bad and too good to be alone. The beauty of relationship is having a witness to all the good and bad.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
I love you mommy, I sobbed through tears!
For anyone who knows me, I absolutely HATE Mother's Day! Now don't get me wrong, love my mom, respect all the mothers out there, but any childless woman past the age of 25 knows that on Mother's Days the questions/statements start rollin..
When is it your turn?
Are you and your man contemplating?
This is the LAST year I'm buying you a gift without you being a mom. You better be knocked up next year (thanks titi, love ya too!!)
Maybe you should consider adoption?
You're like a 2nd mom to the kids
Or worse yet is the big production of your 8 neices/nephews who march single-file line to deliver a card and a gift! Each name perfectly spelled out in the sweetest card, or scribbled in the earnest of efforts!!!.. Ok that is just painstakingly precious, but when you are an emotional waterfall like me when it comes to all things family and you break out in tears, you'd understand why that would simultaneously be like slow burning torture!
Sweet, loving, kind, generous ALL of it! (And definitely the brain child of my mother). Let's now add the words horrible, annoying, confusing, embarassing, and talk about pressure!!
So needless to say this year I was quite happy to be out of town in Dallas for most of the day. When I arrived back at noon I honestly contemplated pretending my flight got delayed a few hours. But like the responsible and dutiful daughter I am, I promptly called to find out the agenda.
Dragging my feet I drove to my mother's. So disillusioned that I forgot the gift and had to go back home. I drove, telling myself I would stop by Walgreens and pick up a card. However mind still mentally preparing, I completely overlooked it...
Cut to yesterday, May 12th.. Feeling bad and like I had been completely unspirited I called my mom.
"What you doing?" I asked shyly.
"Just watching tv and cooking" she says.
"Oh, how was your day?" I stall..
"Ok"
"Good.... So listen mom, I just realized I did not get you a Mother's Day card. I'm sorry!"
"Oh dear, you don't have to get me a card"...
"I know mom, it's just I was thinking about you the other day when I had my book club party. I found the little spreading knives you gave me and I realized you're just the most considerate person I know". Tears starting to flow... "I really think you're the most giving, caring person I know... I remember back in high school whenever I needed something I'd come home and it was on my bed... I find myself doing that with Jay always anticipating his needs and I think I get that from you. I'm really lucky to have you. I love you" now completely sobbing..
"Well I'm happy to do it while I'm here and I can. Thank you dear, it's really nice to hear." "Are you okay, are you on your period?"..
Laughing out loud "Yes mom but I just wanted to make sure you knew how much I appreciate you.... I guess it's more difficult saying the words than just writing it in a card".
"I know. I really like to hear it though. It means a lot!"
"Ok mom. Well I just wanted to call and say that.. I will let you get back to what you were doing".
"Ok dear, thank you, I love you."
"I love you too mom!!"
I hang up the phone feeling silly, emotional, happy to have caused a smile, and loved!!! I exhale... as much as I hate Mother's Day,I realize what a completely special day it is. To honor the one person who, if your lucky, has bandaged your cuts, and thought about you when you didn't think of yourself. Who always knew and fostered your potential, and allowed you to grow into an independant and happy adult. This is the person who has loved, more than anything, the role she has had in your life as your mother. How then can you blame her, or anyone else for that matter, for wanting to extend that same joy and pleasure to their most treasured child..
So with a new attitude I say to all "Happy Mother's Day!". It's all about you... However when it comes to me, just leave me the hell alone!! LOL...
When is it your turn?
Are you and your man contemplating?
This is the LAST year I'm buying you a gift without you being a mom. You better be knocked up next year (thanks titi, love ya too!!)
Maybe you should consider adoption?
You're like a 2nd mom to the kids
Or worse yet is the big production of your 8 neices/nephews who march single-file line to deliver a card and a gift! Each name perfectly spelled out in the sweetest card, or scribbled in the earnest of efforts!!!.. Ok that is just painstakingly precious, but when you are an emotional waterfall like me when it comes to all things family and you break out in tears, you'd understand why that would simultaneously be like slow burning torture!
Sweet, loving, kind, generous ALL of it! (And definitely the brain child of my mother). Let's now add the words horrible, annoying, confusing, embarassing, and talk about pressure!!
So needless to say this year I was quite happy to be out of town in Dallas for most of the day. When I arrived back at noon I honestly contemplated pretending my flight got delayed a few hours. But like the responsible and dutiful daughter I am, I promptly called to find out the agenda.
Dragging my feet I drove to my mother's. So disillusioned that I forgot the gift and had to go back home. I drove, telling myself I would stop by Walgreens and pick up a card. However mind still mentally preparing, I completely overlooked it...
Cut to yesterday, May 12th.. Feeling bad and like I had been completely unspirited I called my mom.
"What you doing?" I asked shyly.
"Just watching tv and cooking" she says.
"Oh, how was your day?" I stall..
"Ok"
"Good.... So listen mom, I just realized I did not get you a Mother's Day card. I'm sorry!"
"Oh dear, you don't have to get me a card"...
"I know mom, it's just I was thinking about you the other day when I had my book club party. I found the little spreading knives you gave me and I realized you're just the most considerate person I know". Tears starting to flow... "I really think you're the most giving, caring person I know... I remember back in high school whenever I needed something I'd come home and it was on my bed... I find myself doing that with Jay always anticipating his needs and I think I get that from you. I'm really lucky to have you. I love you" now completely sobbing..
"Well I'm happy to do it while I'm here and I can. Thank you dear, it's really nice to hear." "Are you okay, are you on your period?"..
Laughing out loud "Yes mom but I just wanted to make sure you knew how much I appreciate you.... I guess it's more difficult saying the words than just writing it in a card".
"I know. I really like to hear it though. It means a lot!"
"Ok mom. Well I just wanted to call and say that.. I will let you get back to what you were doing".
"Ok dear, thank you, I love you."
"I love you too mom!!"
I hang up the phone feeling silly, emotional, happy to have caused a smile, and loved!!! I exhale... as much as I hate Mother's Day,I realize what a completely special day it is. To honor the one person who, if your lucky, has bandaged your cuts, and thought about you when you didn't think of yourself. Who always knew and fostered your potential, and allowed you to grow into an independant and happy adult. This is the person who has loved, more than anything, the role she has had in your life as your mother. How then can you blame her, or anyone else for that matter, for wanting to extend that same joy and pleasure to their most treasured child..
So with a new attitude I say to all "Happy Mother's Day!". It's all about you... However when it comes to me, just leave me the hell alone!! LOL...
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Wednesday just say no to abuse cambaign!!
ok... I feel like today is a reality check Wednesdays for the ladies of the world (or maybe just for my three readers..lol).. Seriously, a student kills his ex-girlfriend by repeatedly shaking and banging her head against a wall!!! Wow... My skin crawls to think about it. The nerve of a kid, waiving his miranda rights to describe in detail what took place. To me, that's sick and twisted!! It reminds me of a murder investigation show that didn't last long (it was hella cool so it should've). In the show crime scene thrill seakers teamed up and reinvestigated a real case, fake crime scene and all. In this particular case the murderer entered his neighbor's house, raped and tourched the place, only to reassert himself in the investigation and claim to be the hero. He was caught when he let a very important detail slip".. I couldn't sleep all night when I saw that , talk about narcissistic!!.. Back to my point.. How in the hell do people not know that their man is in-FREAKIN-sane!! Jay and I discussed this very subject this morning.
Me: "Babe I would know!! I'm telling you, I would!"
Him: "No dear, they say that a person can fool you for up to 6 months"
Really, I think to myself sadly...
I think in another life I was a prosecutor for this very issue. I remember once in high school in my Criminology mock trial being the defendant of a woman who killed her husband in self defense. Our stance was that she had battered woman's syndrome. I stayed up nights, researching and studying the case, trying to give my client the best defense possible. It seemed like breathing wasn't important at that time, life was this case! In class, I would get up and object so much the prosecutor could not speak and the class would cheer!! Remembering this I wish I could account this all to me being extremely smart. And while I am that (:-)), I know that my passion in that moment was the same passion that prevents me from lending a hand in organizations that protect women against abuse: I'm afraid I'll Lorena Bobbit on some ass!!
Me: "Nope, nope, no babe! The guy wouldn't last a second date! I would know. I just don't see how someone could not know. It's in the way he talks, it's in the stories he tells. It's all about control. I would see someone trying to be controlling"..
Him: "You're right it's all about control. Ok Spank, maybe you could tell. Most people aren't that perceptive. They just don't see the clues"
I can not bear that women are out there being abused. Mentally or physically. Emotionally it tears me up inside to think someone has so little self-worth that they don't just make a move. A move away from the situation, but more importantly a move to talk to someone. Let me tell you my three friends, NO man will EVER be worth that suffering. As a beautiful woman - and beautiful you are - you have in you the ability to move mountains!! Take a step, however small, but please STEP!
P.S. And as a public service announcement I've gathered the biggest signs that you're in an abusive relationship:
-is jealous or possessive towards you.
-tries to control you by being very bossy or demanding.
-tries to isolate you by demanding you cut off social contacts and friendships.
-is violent and/or loses his or her temper quickly.
-presses you sexually, demands sexual activities you are not comfortable with.
-abuses drugs or alcohol.
-claims you are responsible for his or her emotional state.
-blames YOU when he or she mistreats you.
-has a history of bad relationships.
-your family and friends have warned you about the person or told you that they are concerned for your safety or emotional well being.
-you frequently worry about how he or she will react to things you say or do.
-makes "jokes" that shame, humiliate, demean or embarrass you, weather privately or around family and friends.
-your partner grew up witnessing an abusive parental relationship and/or was abused as a child. -you leave and then return to your partner repeatedly, against the advice of your friends, family and loved ones.
Me: "Babe I would know!! I'm telling you, I would!"
Him: "No dear, they say that a person can fool you for up to 6 months"
Really, I think to myself sadly...
I think in another life I was a prosecutor for this very issue. I remember once in high school in my Criminology mock trial being the defendant of a woman who killed her husband in self defense. Our stance was that she had battered woman's syndrome. I stayed up nights, researching and studying the case, trying to give my client the best defense possible. It seemed like breathing wasn't important at that time, life was this case! In class, I would get up and object so much the prosecutor could not speak and the class would cheer!! Remembering this I wish I could account this all to me being extremely smart. And while I am that (:-)), I know that my passion in that moment was the same passion that prevents me from lending a hand in organizations that protect women against abuse: I'm afraid I'll Lorena Bobbit on some ass!!
Me: "Nope, nope, no babe! The guy wouldn't last a second date! I would know. I just don't see how someone could not know. It's in the way he talks, it's in the stories he tells. It's all about control. I would see someone trying to be controlling"..
Him: "You're right it's all about control. Ok Spank, maybe you could tell. Most people aren't that perceptive. They just don't see the clues"
I can not bear that women are out there being abused. Mentally or physically. Emotionally it tears me up inside to think someone has so little self-worth that they don't just make a move. A move away from the situation, but more importantly a move to talk to someone. Let me tell you my three friends, NO man will EVER be worth that suffering. As a beautiful woman - and beautiful you are - you have in you the ability to move mountains!! Take a step, however small, but please STEP!
P.S. And as a public service announcement I've gathered the biggest signs that you're in an abusive relationship:
-is jealous or possessive towards you.
-tries to control you by being very bossy or demanding.
-tries to isolate you by demanding you cut off social contacts and friendships.
-is violent and/or loses his or her temper quickly.
-presses you sexually, demands sexual activities you are not comfortable with.
-abuses drugs or alcohol.
-claims you are responsible for his or her emotional state.
-blames YOU when he or she mistreats you.
-has a history of bad relationships.
-your family and friends have warned you about the person or told you that they are concerned for your safety or emotional well being.
-you frequently worry about how he or she will react to things you say or do.
-makes "jokes" that shame, humiliate, demean or embarrass you, weather privately or around family and friends.
-your partner grew up witnessing an abusive parental relationship and/or was abused as a child. -you leave and then return to your partner repeatedly, against the advice of your friends, family and loved ones.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Tales from the trails
So Sunday marked the 2nd weekend in a row my girl Ray and I went hiking. She's on a rather recent "drive to health" marathon. The girl is on a jog every day, hike couple of times a week, strength, good food healthapalooza!! I envy that! Can't say that'll ever be me, but the shit's inspiring! Even caught myself making healthy lunches past couple of weeks. Without even trying!!! Go figure???
Anyhow we're standing on South Mountain ready to hike down.. Smart girl that I am, I decide to bring sweet little Mady along. For those of you that don't know, Mady is my half spaniel, half retriever beauty! She's a loveable, sociable, golden who likes to follow her mamma everywhere. So I'm thinking let me give her some QT and some exercise at the same time. Ingenious right???... Uhh maybe not. See here's the thing, dogs aint like humans. Can't very easily spit out "FUCK man, I'd rather be in bed!".. Poor thing was breathing heavy just laying in the back seat of the car on the ride up.
Anyhow we're standing on South Mountain ready to hike down.. Smart girl that I am, I decide to bring sweet little Mady along. For those of you that don't know, Mady is my half spaniel, half retriever beauty! She's a loveable, sociable, golden who likes to follow her mamma everywhere. So I'm thinking let me give her some QT and some exercise at the same time. Ingenious right???... Uhh maybe not. See here's the thing, dogs aint like humans. Can't very easily spit out "FUCK man, I'd rather be in bed!".. Poor thing was breathing heavy just laying in the back seat of the car on the ride up.
Sweet girl that she is though, she happily goes along. Actually she whipped us into shape. Was nearly dragging me down the mountain!! At some point I swear I heard her sign loudly. I'm sure she was thinking "Damn, you brought me out here. Least you can do is keep your ass up!!"
This weekend was a little hotter than last. Seemed everyone was feeling the heat. We got to the bottom only to turn around and hike back up. Doing it canyon-like, intense!!! I nearly peed my pants when a lady looked at me like she was about to report me for animal cruelty. She stopped, looked at us and said in amazement "you're going to do it again!!". Her eyes widened as we explained we started from up top. She just stood there looking at us as if she wanted to call us "crazy bitches!!"
We got the same reaction from the brother coming down. "Again".. I couldn't stop laughing!! I say to Ray, "damn I'm not explaining myself again!". (Not cuz I don't believe in being social to complete strangers, I'm all for the polite small talk. But at this point I can barely breath and we haven't really started the uphill yet!! )
So Ray and I are chatting. You know catching up and she says "man I want to get to the point where I can wear only a sports bra like that chick!". I'm thinking to myself, if it gets any hotter, you'll see me doing the same thing!! My mind flashed back to two hours earlier, when the man laughed when I stood in front of the mirror and pointed out how tight my obliques looked!! Fuck.. Whatever.. Maybe we'll wait on that!
So I continue my treck up (clothes on) and I spot Mady's poop to my left side. Only took 30 minutes and the mess turned dark as charcoal. Hilarious!!!
Finally at the top, Ray and I are chillen against a rock when a hippy pulls up with a red van. His hair is moppy, he has no shirt on and loose jeans. I tell Ray.. "Totally looks like something you'd blog around". We start picking apart the man's van. Look's more like a mini van driven by a soccer mom instead of a hippie. Ray suggests he paint some kind of moon or stars on the front..
At this point Mady is laid out in the dirt. Poor thing still panting like she stole something!! I keep my eye on the hippie, who's now opened the side door and is laying in the van... Air blowing through his hair. And for a moment there, everything goes silent and I get that same draft!!
I start to think man,.. this guy's up to something.
It's like the heat has drained me and instead energy is rushing up through me now, giving me my second wind!! Feels so awesome and refreshing!! Nothing quite like it,... so Ray and I are in the car... She turns to me and asks "Next week good for you??"... "Yep! I'm good for it!!"
This weekend was a little hotter than last. Seemed everyone was feeling the heat. We got to the bottom only to turn around and hike back up. Doing it canyon-like, intense!!! I nearly peed my pants when a lady looked at me like she was about to report me for animal cruelty. She stopped, looked at us and said in amazement "you're going to do it again!!". Her eyes widened as we explained we started from up top. She just stood there looking at us as if she wanted to call us "crazy bitches!!"
We got the same reaction from the brother coming down. "Again".. I couldn't stop laughing!! I say to Ray, "damn I'm not explaining myself again!". (Not cuz I don't believe in being social to complete strangers, I'm all for the polite small talk. But at this point I can barely breath and we haven't really started the uphill yet!! )
So Ray and I are chatting. You know catching up and she says "man I want to get to the point where I can wear only a sports bra like that chick!". I'm thinking to myself, if it gets any hotter, you'll see me doing the same thing!! My mind flashed back to two hours earlier, when the man laughed when I stood in front of the mirror and pointed out how tight my obliques looked!! Fuck.. Whatever.. Maybe we'll wait on that!
So I continue my treck up (clothes on) and I spot Mady's poop to my left side. Only took 30 minutes and the mess turned dark as charcoal. Hilarious!!!
Finally at the top, Ray and I are chillen against a rock when a hippy pulls up with a red van. His hair is moppy, he has no shirt on and loose jeans. I tell Ray.. "Totally looks like something you'd blog around". We start picking apart the man's van. Look's more like a mini van driven by a soccer mom instead of a hippie. Ray suggests he paint some kind of moon or stars on the front..
At this point Mady is laid out in the dirt. Poor thing still panting like she stole something!! I keep my eye on the hippie, who's now opened the side door and is laying in the van... Air blowing through his hair. And for a moment there, everything goes silent and I get that same draft!!
I start to think man,.. this guy's up to something.
It's like the heat has drained me and instead energy is rushing up through me now, giving me my second wind!! Feels so awesome and refreshing!! Nothing quite like it,... so Ray and I are in the car... She turns to me and asks "Next week good for you??"... "Yep! I'm good for it!!"
Mady on the ride home!!
Friday, April 16, 2010
Crook of the neck!
Have you ever just wanted to lie your head in the crook of a man's neck? You know, that place where you nose is inches away from taking in that scent only describable as "pure man". You know the pose where you're S shapped against his side, top leg snaking around his legs, nestled in close!!
Ahhh.... [big exhale]... Thats what I'm in the mood for right this second. Where I wish I could be more than anything.
The place where I find peace deep down to my pinky toes. The place where nothing else matters. Complete and utter relaxation. Complete sense of the world being exactly whole for that split second..
I've been thinking a lot about love in the past few months. How do you know when it's really love? What are the warning signs!!
Is it when you're out in your sharp digs and you feel goose bumps at being with such a hot piece of ass..
Or is it in the moment that you're being sarcastically teased for something that is quite embarassing and you just grin and nod like you're not phased..
Or maybe it's when you're discussing for the hundred time where our people have descended from (and you swear you can call it quits any second if you have to have this conversation onE MORE TIME!!!)...
Maybe its the way that he calls you Spanky, rubs your head, or makes sure to go around to the passenger side of the car EVERY TIME to open your door...
I think mine is in the crook of the neck! It doesn't get much better than that... For me, as Peter Pan once said, that's my happy thought!
Ahhh.... [big exhale]... Thats what I'm in the mood for right this second. Where I wish I could be more than anything.
The place where I find peace deep down to my pinky toes. The place where nothing else matters. Complete and utter relaxation. Complete sense of the world being exactly whole for that split second..
I've been thinking a lot about love in the past few months. How do you know when it's really love? What are the warning signs!!
Is it when you're out in your sharp digs and you feel goose bumps at being with such a hot piece of ass..
Or is it in the moment that you're being sarcastically teased for something that is quite embarassing and you just grin and nod like you're not phased..
Or maybe it's when you're discussing for the hundred time where our people have descended from (and you swear you can call it quits any second if you have to have this conversation onE MORE TIME!!!)...
Maybe its the way that he calls you Spanky, rubs your head, or makes sure to go around to the passenger side of the car EVERY TIME to open your door...
I think mine is in the crook of the neck! It doesn't get much better than that... For me, as Peter Pan once said, that's my happy thought!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Duel-Flushing System
I am taking this course right now, Environmental Ethics. Thought to myself "hey, maybe you should actually take advantage of your benefit of free classes and do something to keep yourself busy". So I decided to enroll in the first course of a Sustainability certificate. If anyone knows me, I believe passionately about being accountable and responsible (On a side note, I actually took a survey to determine my strengths and my top five were, in this order, Relator, Maximizer, Empathy, Input and Responsbility). By accountable I mean, doing what you believe, living your life in a way comparable to your values. So anyways back to my class... I've been so wrapped up in all these articles on global warming, the deforestation problems, new forms of renewable energy, etc. that every spare second some thought pops into my mind. Most recently I was reading about the fact that most people in the world have no or limited access to water. So I'm sitting on the toilet in my office building, I look up and I see this little diagram with instructions on how to flush the toilet. It's a duel-flushing system! In a nutshell, you flush up when you have "liquid waste", and down for solid. I think this type of technology is so great!! Love it! So on my way out of the restroom I stop in every stall to see if any other toilets come equipped with this service. None!! So in my attempt to be even more greener (as if a person who calls her man to test the relationship by asking whether or not he invests in compact fluorescent bulbs can be greener) I decide to commit myself to this lone stall! So I get back to my desk and my mind starts to wonder, and I'm left with these questions... If you're going to the restroom and you flush, who flushes up? It seems to be against common nature. Shouldn't the flush up be for solids, I mean who actually uses a public stall to drop solids??
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